What can you expect

Without passion, determination, and courage? It can be so hard to open up to others and let them see who you truly are; it is difficult to let people see your flaws, your desires, your ambitions. But it is this risk that we take, to be vulnerable to others, that truly allows to overcome obstacles. For me, I struggle with this every day, & I always feel as if I have to hold back in front of others. But this has honestly held me back from so many opportunities, and as much as I wish I wasn't, I am a very reserved, quiet person. We can not fight who we are, but it is with true hard work and determination that we can get past our fears. I'm glad I got a reality check today; I actually feel a bit enlightened. I will persevere and try to reach my goals; and I will finally become comfortable with the person that I am.

Awkward moments today

When you're on skype with your friends and your dad starts yelling at you and is vacuuming at the same time.
When everyone in your family is in a bad mood
When you walk into class half an hour late
When you try to pay for hosa and the advisor starts yelling at you
When you're at piano lessons and you have to sight-read part of a piece you were supposed to have looked at

- Pretty much sums up my day.

Vent.

Whywhywhy am I never good enough. Why do you never believe in me? & why, why am I never good at anything that I do.. It's so disappointing and frustrating, like why can't I just accomplish the things I want to do? It gets tiring, hoping that maybe things will different this time around, but they never are.. Well, you know what? I'm NOT going to give up, and I'm just going to try even harder. This coming year, my last year, 110%. & I know you guys don't approve, but you have to realize how important this is to me. I WILL improve.

Lol

What is the point anyways. I should just give up.

I hate looking at my crappy grades on parentlink. -____________-
I feel like this will be the first semester to break my 4.0. My grades are terrible. I need to get things straightened out

I usually don't say this, but FML. I feel super uncomfortable & I need to study for my math test tomorrow. My cramps are so bad this time around that they are interfering with the things I need to do. I'm starting to worry that this will be a problem in the future as well.

Sometimes I wonder if people say yes to things because they want to, or if it's just because they don't want to be rude.