AMSAT san diego trip.

This is a long blog. d;

Sea World -
Was our group's fun day, haha. I was with waikei, ashley, ryan, kalvin, & my cool chaperone the whole day. (:
We got super SOAKED, since we decided to take shipwreck rapids like 3 times in a row. & we also spent like $20 on some machine that was supposed to dry us off. LOLL, waste of money, dude. I was cold the entire day, because I was so darn wet.
My group was late to eveerything, so we always came RIGHT at the end of the shows xD
We went to ride Atlantis at the end, which was super fun :D We made Ryan sit in the very front seat, & he got completely soaked, head from toe, right after he got dry, HAHA. Me & waikei just laughed.
Waikei looked like she was wearing no clothes when she was wearing ryan's jacket. I don't know why, but I thought that was so funny, LMAO.

Seaport Village -
Ate dinner by the sea with a big group of people. Harrassed chris to eat with us, rofl, but he ended up ditching with ryan.
I stole your sweater since I was so cold. Sorry ! I thought about it, but nahh. I decided a no. We walked around, met at the carousel, then went to our inn. Took a shower & crashed.

San Diego Zoo -
Woke up from our really cold, ghetto inn at 6:30. Ate breakfast, then went to the zoo to get interviews from zoo keepers. Got a huge group picture, took a tour, and went behind the scenes for the elephant & giraffe exhibit. Ashley got a picture with a REAL life giraffe, haha.
Me, waikei, & alex started working on our project, which took foreeever, since we couldn't find a zookeeper. Finally found one, much to our relief, so we took some footage of the hippos in the enclosure & called it a day. We also interviewed many strangers, who knew nothing about hippos. d;
Afterwards, we bought souvenirs and got on the bus to go back home. Slept over at ashley's house, and just got back home.

Overall, good trip, I'd say (;

Basically

A bit discontent.

I spent much of my afternoon curled up on the couch. Snug under the covers, my mind began to wander, & I couldn't get you out of my head. Despite how tired I was, your words still echoed in my head, and I found it quite impossible to doze off. So there I was, thinking about you, and staring up at the clouds, laying so still I could watch them move across the sky. I thought about how much you meant to me, & realized that perhaps, you didn't feel the same way.

When you said you wouldn't forgive me, were you telling me the truth ?

I want to make it up to you; not because I feel like I have to, and not because I feel guilty. I want to make it up to you because I know what I did was wrong, and I can't stand having you mad at me any longer. So please forgive me?

Man.

I feel like such a jerk lately.

dude, what am I doing ? Why'd I take the extra credit today ?! I should have just given it to someone else. I don't even need it. & Dang, like I bet that other guy really wanted it. I'm so stupid -___- I've been so irritable with you lately, too, & you STILL saved me twice. Mormons are nice people, HAHA. I feel guilty.

And in the final round, what kind of crappy speech did I give ? I didn't even know what to say, cause I wanted that other guy to win, who actually NEEDED the extra credit.

I don't want the points anymore, give it to someone else already o_o

Haa,

I love Disney fairytales.

How am I,

always up late doing lab reports?
Taking a short break.

Yesterday, me & ashley wore matching pj bottoms for spirit week. :D
I failed my earthworm dissection, by the way. I maybe COULD have passed if I wasn't rushed at the end. Oh well, not like I knew what I was doing, anyways. At least the next dissections aren't graded, so I won't have to worry about frog, pig, crayfish, & grasshopper.
Oh yeah, and I ran into ashley at wal-mart today. What a coincidence, hahaa. I was helping her pick out febreze air fresheners. (:

This past week, I've stuffed soo much junk in my orchestra locker. So far:
- a wooden crutch
- a ukulele
- jacket, shirt, sweats, pj's
- cello, & 2 violins
- ashley's bag for swim
My lockers so big that I actually change in there sometimes (x Quite convenient if all the bathrooms are taken, LOL.

Okaay, back to work. Wish my partner could help me ):
Night, <3

I wish

I could help you. Because all the times you've been there for me, it meant so much to me. & now that you're sad, I can't even be there for you. I'm not helping, & I feel useless.

Feel better soon.

Currently

doing my lab report, which will probably take another two hours to finish.
This stinks, LOL. Oh well, not like I didn't expect this.

There are times

when I really don't like you.

Why won't you let me back into your life ? Is it so hard ?
I still feel empty at times. Maybe it'd be better if you weren't in my life anymore, either. So I don't always have to think to myself, "Oh, I hope he doesn't ignore me today." I don't have to keep beating myself up if we don't talk. I won't have to think that I'm so boring & uninteresting around you. I don't have to worry that your FRIENDS don't like me either. Wth, man. It's not hard for you at all, is it ? It's not hard for you to just look past me and pretend I'm not there. Like I never meant anything to you at all. Well, it's hard for me, loser.

I'm not sure if it's intentional, but it's really starting to get me like it did before. Spring break, I'd talk to you almost every day. What's wrong now ? Don't tell me you want to make it up to me if we don't even talk half the time. & "making it up to me." What is that supposed to mean? Be my friend because you want to, not because you feel obligated to, and not because you'd feel guilty if you weren't. Yeah, don't forget you were the one who left me. I'm a fighter, & I was willing to chase after you. But you didn't let me. It's not your fault, because things happen. I'm not mad at you for being with another girl; I'm happy you're happy. But I'm bitter because you didn't believe in me anymore. Why did we have to try to make it work ? Why's it so effortless with her ? Maybe she was a rebound, but you ended up falling for her. I'm sorry, I'm not mad at you. Sorry, I'm not trying to blame this on you.

I know you're happy right now. But I guess I'm not a part of that anymore.

Seems as if

you know everything I don't.

I'm supposed to be

performing at the US 2010 census event right now, but NO. My dad didn't want to drive me. Thanks dad d;

Yesterday, at townsquare, we did nothing. We sat around, and did nothing. We walked to borders, and did nothing. LOL, yeep that was our day ! We did end up eating at kabuki, though. & I got to see MANDY :D That made me day. Me & shawn carpooled, my mom thought he was cute and korean. xD HAHA, that made my day, too.


I am not good at hooking people up, soo that is something I will never do again. (Isn't that what I said last time? Yeahh..) I mean it this time, haha.

up & ready

to practice :D
feeling refreshed and happy.