They weren't

relapses. I like you. I still like you.

None of that matters, though. I'm just someone who has a hard time letting go.
What makes it worse is when you don't respond to my calls/texts, & I start to miss you.

You even said, you never see it happening between us.
So I should be over this, but I'm not, & I don't know why.

I honestly

don't believe anyone reads my blogspot anymore, HAHA. S'all good, though. (:
Okay, so this is what usually happens, in the following order:

1. I sign on AIM
2. I see you are signed on as well.
3. I send you an IM.
4. I wait a little bit for your response.
5. You sign off.

LOOL, WHY'S THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN? Am I cursed ? (x
I found this funny, but frustrating at the same time, hahaha.
Better luck next time !

Yeah,

I still use my blogspot.

But I made a tumblr, so if you wanna follow:
ohheeybrittany.tumblr.com

I only have 3 posts so far, but uh, I'm workin' on it!
I'll still post stuff on here, though. My blogspot will be for some of my more private/boring posts, LOL.

Okay, that's it.

-Brittany

I'm

wondering if you had ignored my call.

Well, happy birthday ! We've been through a lot this year; our friendship has had many ups & downs. There were times we didn't talk, times we didn't understand each other, & times when we both got irritated at each other.
But at the same time, there were also plenty of times we made each other happy, & that's why I believe it's all been worthwhile. When I first met you, you were just the weird kid who sat next to me in geometry. But now, you've become one of my close friends. How unexpected, right ?

I'm glad to have met you, because you are one of the people who made my freshman year great. A lot of my memories this year include you. I remember the times we went to townsquare, our walks to p.e & chinatown, solo & ensemble, messing around in ms. wong's, Sadie's, the volleyball game, spooktacular, dryland, and baking cupcakes at my house. Good times, right ? (x

You've made an impact on me, and I feel as if I've changed because of our friendship. I really hope we can still stay good friends in the future. (:
I'm looking forward to the next 3 years of high school, haha.

We haven't been talking that much lately, so I just want to say that I miss you !
Happy 16th birthday, turtle. <3

Lalala.

I should start running so I can get in shape.
Some dude was spraying water on me, mandy, & alice today while we were running on the track. How strange o__o

Ugh, I feel so out of shape. I didn't even run a full lap before I stopped running. Asdfklj, am I seriously thinking about trying out for volleyball ? I wouldn't make it. I'd probably die the first day of conditioning. But I hatee flaking out of things. I hate saying I'll try something, & end up not doing it. Isn't that what happened during Dry Land ? I quit & let myself down. I actually really regret not doing a sport this year. But then again, I wonder if I would have even made it into anything. I'm so unathletic -___-

Can I really get in shape before august ? I don't think so, but I better try harder from now on.

Man.

I wish could understand/speak Canto. -___-
It's really awkward when your cousins are over & you don't understand what they're saying.

Is it just me ?

Or does Cheng from Karate Kid look like Mandy ? o__o
Just hadda point that out.

Dad,

Happy Father's Day.

I have to say, you've always been a really good parent to me & natalie. You've sacrificed so much time & sleep for us these past 17 years, and I would never want another dad. Thank you for supporting me my whole life. & I'd have to thank you, especially, for supporting me in piano these past 9 years, too.
I admire you, because you always have a big smile on your face. You put up with my mood swings, even thought you don't have to.

You've given me & natalie a good environment to grow up in. You give us the opportunities you never had when you were our age. Even though our family has our disagreements, you've still stayed with us, to this day. Our family isn't perfect, and we have a lot of problems. But thank you for trying anyways.
Thank you for setting my standards. You taught me that I should never settle for mediocrity. I should always aim for my best, whether it be in school, piano, etc. Thank you for choosing to move to America; it must have been so hard for you to get adjusted here, but you did it for the sake of mom & us kids. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I know I haven't been the best daughter, but I'll try harder from now on. Oh, & thank you for trusting me. Thank you for believing in the best in me; you trust that I make the right decisions. I don't know what I'd do without you.

All I can really say is, thank you. I want to repay you one day for everything you've given me. You & mom can always move in with me when I'm all grown up. (:
Thanks, dad !

What ?

Me: What do guys like about girls ? & I mean like, not physical things.

Ryan: Very cliche things.

Me: Like what ? (x
Good sense of humor, smart, blah blah ?

Ryan: Oh yea, that too.

Me: Hmm, what else ? LOL, what do you look for in a girl, ryan ?

Ryan: What do I look for ? I don't, lol

Me: Really ? HAHA, it's okay. I'm not quite sure what I look for in guys, either.

Ryan: They "must be Filipino" ;D

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LOL, shut up ! that's not true. (x

We

really aren't so different afterall, are we ?

Thanks budddy.

gotmoo@live.com (1:14:36 AM): he'll have you and other people
gotmoo@live.com (1:14:39 AM): and sing to him
gotmoo@live.com (1:14:42 AM): that made me feel better
gotmoo@live.com (1:14:49 AM): i'm sure you'll figure something out, brittany
gotmoo@live.com (1:14:51 AM): you're very sweet and nice
gotmoo@live.com (1:14:52 AM): (:
gotmoo@live.com (1:14:53 AM): go.

How's that for encouragement ? LOL

Last day.

Really does NOT feel like a year has passed.
Today was a good way to kick off the summer. (:

No more exams to worry about, but I have a feeling I got a 'B' on like alll of them.
Me & a group of friends went ice-skating afterwards, which was fun. (x
Once that was over, I went to naiyana's house, which was good too. I almost got enough money on fast food nation to buy onion rings, HA.

It's time to relax, until summer school starts.
I hope the rest of the summer is good, too ! Hopeufully better than last year's.
Ready for summer '10 ! :D