Sunday, January 30, 2011

Oh well, Too bad for me, huh?

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Why don't

people take me seriously? I'm constantly overlooked for other people, and I have to wonder why that is.
I have good grades, I get straight A's. But my classmates still look down on me, & tell me that the only reason why I get good grades is because I have all the easy teachers. Did you ever stop to think that maybe I get straight A's because I work hard for them? True, my classes aren't as hard as some of my classmates are. But that doesn't that I don't put a lot of effort into school.

& another thing. I wish so much that my orchestra teacher would like me. But he barely remembers who I am. I just won a state competition, placed 3rd in regionals, & have been playing for 9 years. Yet, my teacher still has trouble remembering my name. I tell him that I'm a good pianist, & he doesn't believe me. Next year, I would like to be pianist for chamber, but I doubt he would let me. And I know it's not because I'm not good enough. I'm not saying that to be cocky, but I know that I could for sure learn the chamber pieces, and play them well.

Why don't people take notice of me? I've been a wallflower my whole life, and it does get quite tiring.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Awkward.

I've noticed that I've been really awkward lately, more so than usual. o___O
Like I'll see people that I know & not say hi to them. I find that awkwawrd, when you pass by someone & aren't sure whether or not to say hi. Maybe it's just me.. I'm a pretty awkward person.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

You tell me things that I know you don't mean. I know you say those things just so you don't seem like a jerk. This time around,I knew not to expect anything. I knew that you wouldn't stick to your word. But I was still hoping you would.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Why.

Why do I even try? ): I guess I'll never learn, huh? Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Sorry that I'm too stupid to realize what's actually going on. I hope you can look past this, & let us go back to how we are. Truth is, I just don't exist to you anymore. I should have accepted that a long time ago. But I was too stubborn, and I'm sorry for that.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

To be honest, I'm exhausted. I feel so weary. Please tell me I'll make it through this week okay.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

2011.

Happy New Year! (:

I'm actually not as excited for this year. Mainly because I feel like I'm getting old, LOL. But I am excited for what this year will bring! Hopefully 2011 will be just as good as 2010. (x