4-day weekend.

Ah. I don't really know how much of a "weekend" it was for me, but I DID get some time to relaz, hahah. Now I'm at home, typing up this post, with my AP Lang homework sitting in front of me. Of course, I have not done any homework yet. Typical me..

Blah. My piano competition is coming up in 2 weeks, and I am not prepared. Both my solo & duet need a lot of work, lol. My mom never fails to remind me that I am not nearly as talented as my competitors. However, I must admit, I am happy to even compete on the same level as them this year. & even though I have no chance of placing, just competing alongside such talented, young musicians is an accomplishment to me. So I will try my best these next two weeks, & that will be that. From this experience, I expect nothing but to come out of this a better pianist. That is all I wish.

You are everything I wish I could be. Watching you succeed motivates me & make me want to do better.

So stressed lately.

& you're not making it any better. Thanks for being so supportive, I really appreciate it. Ha.

I feel relieved, to finally be able to talk about it with someone who understood.
I hope things won't be awkward between us.

I hate hate hate hate

how I still think about you sometimes.

- Sometimes I just don't feel like I'm good enough. More and more often. And it bugs me.

- My math homework is not done.

- I'm behind in school work.

- I'm kind-of sad that I'm getting replaced in marching band.

- Why do my friends never tell me anything anymore..

- We've become a lot closer lately. & I like how I can just be myself around you. I never have to worry about you judging me. You see a side of me that a lot of people don't.

- I'm a jerk, and I'm sorry.

- I really wish I could drive & not have to ask my parents to drive me everywhere.. lol

- I miss you.