There are times

when I really don't like you.

Why won't you let me back into your life ? Is it so hard ?
I still feel empty at times. Maybe it'd be better if you weren't in my life anymore, either. So I don't always have to think to myself, "Oh, I hope he doesn't ignore me today." I don't have to keep beating myself up if we don't talk. I won't have to think that I'm so boring & uninteresting around you. I don't have to worry that your FRIENDS don't like me either. Wth, man. It's not hard for you at all, is it ? It's not hard for you to just look past me and pretend I'm not there. Like I never meant anything to you at all. Well, it's hard for me, loser.

I'm not sure if it's intentional, but it's really starting to get me like it did before. Spring break, I'd talk to you almost every day. What's wrong now ? Don't tell me you want to make it up to me if we don't even talk half the time. & "making it up to me." What is that supposed to mean? Be my friend because you want to, not because you feel obligated to, and not because you'd feel guilty if you weren't. Yeah, don't forget you were the one who left me. I'm a fighter, & I was willing to chase after you. But you didn't let me. It's not your fault, because things happen. I'm not mad at you for being with another girl; I'm happy you're happy. But I'm bitter because you didn't believe in me anymore. Why did we have to try to make it work ? Why's it so effortless with her ? Maybe she was a rebound, but you ended up falling for her. I'm sorry, I'm not mad at you. Sorry, I'm not trying to blame this on you.

I know you're happy right now. But I guess I'm not a part of that anymore.